What!?!
Okay. Grades were posted today.
I have already vented to Jenna for the past 2 hours, and I just got off the phone with my mother.
I think I am in shock and incapable of processing the news.
I knew that I had in A in Consumer Behavior. I was worried about the grade for my internship. I was ready to accept an A- or even a B. I was in no way prepared for the grade I was given.
If you have read my previous posts, you know that I strive for perfection. I know that I did not write my final paper to the best of my abilities, but I still believed it was an average, college level paper. However, I know that I did very well with the actual work that I performed for the internship itself. This is how I rationalized a grade no lower than a B.
I had to prepare myself for the possibility of a B. I have never in my entire life ever received anything less than an A for a final grade in a class. I repeatedly had to assure myself that my world would not end, and my academic life would not come crashing down upon me if I received something less than perfect. Meditation and visualization have kept me from stumbling into an anxiety attack over the past week.
As I scroll down the webpage to view my grades, my breathing starts to accelerate. I come down to Summer Semester 2007 and my eyes fall upon my grades.....
My brain does not register what my eyes are clearly viewing. Then it sinks in. My chest starts to hurt, my palms start to sweat, I start shaking, and my breathing becomes even more rapid.
A C+..........
What!?!
How did that happen? I don't understand. That means that my paper had to have been below average, and frankly, that is just not possible.
Now I'm starting to get lightheaded. I need a cigarette.
Damn - I stopped smoking.
I might need to take a semester off to recover. My 4.0 GPA of 3 years has now dropped to a 3.93. I will never be able to recover that again. Ever. Nevermind - I might need two semesters to cope. Students | Sheena
Tuesday, July 31, 2007 6:19:19 PM (Atlantic Standard Time, UTC-04:00)  |
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